portlandooh!

...so i guess we drank some wine, eh?

they say it's your birthday

happy birthday todd!!!
real birthday is tomorrow. 50 years old there bud!
karen made him his favorite: german chocolate cake with coconut frosting
tra la!

everyone is so scared of being alone that they talk on their cell phones while waiting for their lunch.
no one can sit still for 2 seconds. no one breathes. or listens. or thinks.

the universe is shaped exactly like the earth

images from last month from outer space
look at us!!

we can eat the fruit from the evil tree

timmy and i out on the fire escape last summer. first party in our apartment.
it's creeping ever closer again.....!

i got this thing i consider my only art of fucking people over

somewhere else someone else helps everyone else except their own self

i me mine

im tired and blinky

i only have eyes for you, oh lord, please tell me you watch me too?

secret spots on days off.
nothing greater.
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wideandfoggyandwarm.

the ongoing horrible

not horrible at all.

the tits

tempeh sauted in tamari. spinach, mushrooms, and broccoli w/dijon soy cheese sauce. and tomatoes, garlic and olive oil.
ohhhhhh.

cats outta the bag i meannnn......

cat in a bag!!!!!!!!!!!! stayed at chuck's last night and enjoyed the usuals!!
worked today. day off tomorrow. portland was lovely as always.
been listening to a lot of billie holiday and converge.
the night is wild! and i must sleep.

no surf just pine trees!

sleepy sheets!!!! cemetery figurines and midnight J's.

each strand of her hair is really insect eyes

still in portland!!!
today was a nice nice day!!!
walked around with chuck for a big. bowlsandchaiteas outside.
went to the free wall.
went to max's for a bit. ben and i got din at silly's. so fucking good.
nice day. nice night ahead.
success.
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the world is turning

i hear it's supposed to be 70 degrees outside today??!!! did you hear??!!??!!!!!!!
i work at 12 boooohoo!
shits been going crazy lately around here.
but im sort of feeling better. been looking at it from a different perspective.
trying desperately to hang in with this job for as long as i can possibly stand.
means of transport has diminished leading me to think harder.
been feeling sad since the beginning about missing summer in portland.
studio for june july august would be fucking superb.
barefeet, many friends returning for summertime, tattoos, good people everywhere, blank walls, salv, chuck, walking at night, sitting on the monument in the sun, RIDING BIKES!, grime central, nice get togethers always, trains, wine in the daytime, CHEAP wine, NO JOB, dirty dirty dirty feet and hair and limbs, swimming in the ocean, knotted hair, no schedule, no plans, no rush, walking up munjoy hill, secret spots and lots of time to create new things and meet new people and relax to the max.

i am a muddled mess of a million thoughts and feelings and ideas and worries and dreams every day.
thinking about my "future" fucks me up and gets my mind rambling and investigating each enticing option.
i hate that. "your future" "we're worried about your future"
the future is now. i just live.

going up to portland after work tonight. don't have to work till tuesday fuck yeah!!!!!!
tearrrrrin it up

eagles become vultures

my new sketchbook is slightly too wide and too tall to fit into the scanner which is somewhat irritating.
so i went out on the deck and took pictures instead. it's 60 degrees out?????!
some things from the last few days