sacred=profane

to do:

-learn self control

-stand the fuck up for yourself

-imagine beauty

-remember that you will never be the only one

-buy film

-try harder to give up

-scape up some self respect to go with that control

-clean room

-eat more vegetables

i suck always. 

this morning i wrote haikus in english.

inconsistency

fireflies flicker on ice

red lips float past me

underneath is rot

intestines writhe, crawl inside

eat your heart out boy

i am a shadow

can you see me fall?

can't see me at all.

i hate that clicking.

if only i was skinny.

my knees are mountains.

do you think of me?

i think of you. bright blue eyes

i chase you in dreams

your hair is dirty

no, no shower. i like it.

you always smell good.

my belly jiggles

macho pigs, slam that head hard

blurry. black. im gone

5-7-5 syllables is my new mantra.